She is very good at making people feel at home. Most people get attracted to her because she gives everything she has; her time, money or anything she can give. But one thing people don’t know about her is this: She gives everything she has because she is scared of being left alone.
As she quietly celebrated her 46th birthday in her townhouse, she turned the TV on and sat down across the TV. She didn’t even know why she turned it on because she was not watching. She was “zoomed out” to somewhere else. As if the TV was talking to her, reaching to the remote control, she said, “I don’t think you be of any help for me today,” and she turned it off.
She wished if someone called and said, “Happy birthday! Let’s go out and have fun,” but who? Just ten years ago, her phone used to ring every minute. Not anymore.
She had to initiate any fun; and as long as she provided, most people would accept her invitation. Party, lunch, breakfast, picnic, home party, dinner party; you name it, she did it all so that she would be with others. But one thing she yearned; and that was for someone to look for her; to ask her out for lunch or something. Continue reading A God of Second Chance →