A4P Guest: Hi, I’m a born again Christian man. I was born and raised in a Christian home in Addis Ababa, Ethiopia. I left Addis at the age of 14. I am now 28 years old. I love my mom and my two older brothers to death. My dad walked out of our life when I was six years old. I have no love or care for him since he used to physically abuse my mom, my two brothers and I. I am the youngest. At the age of eight, I was sexually molested by two men who used to live next to our house. At the time, I didn’t know what was going on and didn’t know what to do with it. I still have nightmares once in a while and I cry like a little boy. I have never told this part of my story to anyone. Those two men might be out there now and I pray they don’t do such a thing to any other little boys. I don’t know if this part of my story has anything to do with what I’m going through since I was 13. I have never been attracted to a girl but a man. I have received Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior when I was fourteen years old. My tendency to be sexually attracted to men didn’t leave me alone even after I received Jesus Christ. Because I fear someone may find out what is going on in my mind and heart, I don’t usually go to a Bible study or a small group gathering of any sort. I now go to one American’s mega church here in my city and that is it. I know I don’t want to be a homosexual and I am not a homosexual. About a couple years ago, I searched online and joined a group of people who have similar stories like mine and I kind of felt relieved for a short period of time but I couldn’t embrace it as they advised me to embrace my same-sex attraction struggle as my identity. I want to do life as the Word of God says. Deep in my heart, I know that I’m a heterosexual and I want to declare that but I have this deep seated struggle which doesn’t seem to leave me alone. I still get attracted to men, not women. I prayed and prayed and prayed. Nothing seems to work. Right now, with all the animosity going around with the Supreme Court decision to redefine marriage, I totally lost interest to go to church. I don’t want to hear anyone making jokes about my struggle. Now, here I’m in my small one bedroom apartment, reading almost all your posts, I sobbed! I want to die! I want to end it right here. I want this struggle to stop! You see, I want to live a happy life. I want to marry one woman and have kids but this struggle is with me. I’m not sure what my future holds. Missy, does God really care about my struggle? Does He really know what I am going through? When am I going to rest from this struggle or will this struggle ever leave me?
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THE WAY!
All these things which are unfolding before our eyes are, in part, results of fatherless homes. Take note if you are a father.
The Bible says, “Train up a child in the way he should go” (Proverbs 22:6). It says, “IN THE WAY!”
You can’t create a way and train up your son in your creative ways and expect him to turn out to be a good citizen or a leader. The Bible doesn’t say, “Train up a child in a way” but in “THE WAY!”
THE WAY has already been set, never to be changed, defined or redefined!
Jesus said, “I’m THE WAY and the truth and the life.” (John 14:6)
While it is still “DAY TIME,” train up your son in THE WAY! Because the NIGHT is soon falling!
Woe to you if you abandon your son to himself and the society because your own son comes back to you as your enemy in the night and bit you!
If you yourself grew up in a fatherless home, you are not alone. The good news is, now you have THE FATHER in Christ. So, learn how to be a father and a man from Him and from those who are trained up by Him for a long period of time. Then be a father to your son! ///
The US Supreme Court Redefined Marriage in all 50 States
A4P Guest: Did you hear the news yesterday about the US Supreme Court Decision about marriage?
A4P: Yes, I did!
A4P Guest: Can you say something about it?
A4P: I am not sure what you are asking me. Are you asking me whether I am for or against the decision?
A4P Guest: I know you only believe in a marriage between one man and one woman. No, that is not what I’m asking you. I’m just asking what your take is on the issue, like the implication the Supreme Court decision has on us, Christians. Continue reading The US Supreme Court Redefined Marriage in all 50 States
Happy Father’s Day!
Happy Anniversary to the wonderful couple!
Today, my parents, my mom, Kessela Mengistu and my dad, Tadesse Kifetew, are celebrating their 55th wedding anniversary! Continue reading Happy Anniversary to the wonderful couple!
Phew! This is harsh, but True!
I was in my kitchen, washing dishes and sweeping the floor. Three of my kids were helping me out. I was wearing a shirt I usually wear when I clean the house. I am sure you all have this kind of shirt. An old and rugged kind of shirt!
I was paying attention to nothing but to my work. Then my youngest son, Biruk, said, “So, Mom, you’re the one who’s hosting the modesty competition on Facebook, right?”
I was bending down to clean the floor. When I heard his question, I looked up and said inquisitively, “Yeeees!” Continue reading Phew! This is harsh, but True!
“Are you asking me to stop being a human being?”
I was seeing someone off at the airport like eight years ago. Then I met one guy who got married like a month ago. So, I asked him about his honeymoon and how marriage had been treating him so far.
While he was telling me about his wife and all, one gorgeous woman came down the escalator we were standing next to. I looked at her and she was pretty. Of course, he stopped talking and gave her a long look. Then I waited until he was done staring; but I was standing there wishing he wouldn’t turn to follow her after she passed us. Continue reading “Are you asking me to stop being a human being?”
The First Day of the Week
Sunday is the first day of the week. I know, for a long time, I thought Monday was the first day of the week. Some people say that Saturday is actually the first day of the week since Saturday is actually the original Sabbath according to Jews.
Well, I think this is one of the issues we shouldn’t divide over. And when people try to argue saying Saturday or Sunday is the Sabbath, I usually say, “Whatever works for you is fine with me.” I mean after all Sabbath “was made for man, not man for the Sabbath.” (Mark 2:27) Continue reading The First Day of the Week
My Book Release Day!
Wow! I wish you all were there! Last Sunday, at IEEC, DC, was a fantastic day for me personally! I bless God for everything!
I bless God for all of you who came out to support me! I really appreciate each and every one of you!
And thank you to all of you who bought my first book, “Beyond the Fairy Tale!” Of course, thank you to all who ordered my book online as well. Continue reading My Book Release Day!
“Beyond the Fairy Tale” – Book Trailer!
When I received the shipment from my publisher, I opened the first box and fell on the floor. It was like a childbirth kind of experience. I took out one book, kissed it many times and I wanted to cry but at the same time I wanted to shout and laugh! I held my book tightly close to my heart and fell before my God and my Lord who saw me through the tough road of writing a book. It was a long and at times very trying journey but through it all, God stood with me saying, “Fixed your eyes on Me and keep going!” Continue reading “Beyond the Fairy Tale” – Book Trailer!