The Heart of a Child

I was writing one beautiful story to share with you all tomorrow, if it is God’s will.

Then something caught my attention for me to stop what I was writing and started writing this.

So, all our kids went to bed while Berhan and I stayed in the kitchen, catching up with our emails and everything else. Then our little one came down and said, “Mom, I’m still waiting for you to pray for me.”

This is kind of our night time tradition, for me to forget to pray for him and for him to remind me.

So I followed him to his bedroom and knelt down next to his bed. There is one beautiful book I bought years ago, titled God’s Promises. So, this little book has lists of God’s promises, classified according to people’s emotion, like Anger, Depression, Sadness, you name it.

So he usually picks one Bible verse according to his present feelings and emotions. This gives me a window to take a peek at his soul.

So, I said, “What is your emotion today?”

He said without hesitation, “Depressed”.

“What?” I said to myself. I fed this little guy dinner; I praised him for doing his speech he has to present tomorrow. He danced for me before he presented the speech, we hugged and kissed.

So, smiling, keeping my cool so that I will hear the truth, I said, “so, why are you depressed?”

“Mom, you know today was “Take Your Child’s to Work Day” and I went with my dad and spent the whole day with him. I enjoyed every bit of it. And today is gone already and I’m very depressed to see this day just passing by.”

I said, “Oh, my dear, I’m so sorry. So, let’s see what Bible verse will be a good one to meditate?”

He already pinned down the depression section on page 80 and we flipped the pages. I read Isaiah 43:2, he said, “No, that didn’t really address my situation”. We moved to the next one, he didn’t like it either.

Then when I read Philippians 4:8, he smiled and said, “Mom, that is a good one. Let’s memorize it.”

“Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things” (Philippians 4:8)

So, we memorized it together until we were able to say it without looking to the book. We talked about how God equipped us with a spirit of power, love and self-control to say “Yes” to a right thought and “No” to the wrong one.

He got it. We prayed on the Word of God so that God will help him to think only that which is pure, true, beautiful, honorable, right and respectful (we read a different Bible version than NIV). I was laying my hands on him while we were praying and I could sense he was comforted by his deep breath. I hardly kissed and said goodnight before he dived into a deep sleep.

You know what I’m thinking right now? Well, I wish I did this to myself every day. For example, today, I felt a little incompetent on the project I was working on. I lost confidence and struggled to see the project piece by piece.

After I tried everything else, I went to my bedroom and closed my door to talk to God. I spent a long time on trying to figure things out all by myself before I remembered that I have a God who reveals mysteries. God comforted me with Chapter 1 and 2 of the Book of Daniel.

I wish I read this in the afternoon before things got worse to the point of me wanting to give up on a project. I wish I was like a little child, who doesn’t depend on his understanding or wisdom but turns to God the moment he feels overwhelmed.

I don’t know about you but for me, the one very thing I need to have right at this season of life is a heart of a child.

Listen to what Jesus said, “And he said: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever takes the lowly position of this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.” (Matthew 18:3-4)

Very convicting, isn’t it? ///